I find myself struggle at work at times, the politics and the selfishness of people tend to tore their mask right in front of my face.
I love observing people characters, from any angle, well who doesn’t anyway. I have been watching someone, not to say analyze (no I have no interest in analyzing its personality that is not worth of my time : failed at first sight, and no improvement since the years we have worked).
Not professional as it’s claimed.
Not intelligent at it’s acting.
Not clever in hiding the temper.
Not tidy.
Not excellent in showing off experience which is actually lack of.
Not convincing to gain my respect.
Not likely a person who everyone likes.
Not easy to deal with.
Not my enemy but the one I’ll curse in my heart.
Not as good as I thought.
Not worth to be trusted.
Not generous.
I was reviewing the resolutions that I’ve set for year 2009, none of them I have accomplished! Alas~!I am not going to set for year 2010.
For those that unplanned, I have done with no regret at all.
1. Discover scuba diving at Redang, fell in love with my own breathing sound in deep water.
2. Busier at work, mostly last minute and mid night job - 8 days development for Get-the-Deal, bravo to the team.
3. MHmobile project which brought me laughter & tears, such an emotional project that I have done so far. Book your tickets, check-in and board flight via flymas.mobi from your mobile.
4. US trip that covers 5 Major cities - SanFrancisco, Los Angeles, New York City, Washington and Niagara.
5. Geneva trip that landed at 3 countries, The Neitherlands, France and Switzerland. First time in my life see the snow and travel with First Class!
6. Be more focus on God’s word
7. Catch up with cousins who were never close before, and we intend to keep our relationship closer.
8. A Merry Christmas with family and church friends.
I have not been smiling these days. I do admit that I am moody at times. Hardly I can understand people, they are just too complicated and trying to be funny at times, or is it just me?
Fear of man, I learnt from Julie, a church friend of mine. If you do understand your self well, you should have known what kind of fear of man you are belongs to.
Fear of man I : A person who are quiet and speak only if she/he wants to. A person who is afraid of bad judgment from others, therefore he/she is behaving extra careful in her/his speeches. (this sounds like me)
Fear of man II: A person who speaks out loud, and talk a lot of nonsense that is not helpful, tend to raise the voice to attract attention. Guess what, these are the people I actually hate most. I am dealing with them everyday in my working life. sucks!
Is there a Fear of man III?
I keep telling myself, smile Ferly, it’s not the end of the world.
I thought of joining Taekwondo classes, but then I have not been in the training for more than a decade, imagine myself wearing uniform with senior belt and kick worse than a white belt kid. I still have my ambitious to continue to 2nd & 3rd Dan, somewhere in my heart but not encouraging. To have that, intensive training is needed….where-la (Malaysian way) I have the stamina? I recalled 5 years back I joint an open class just for a day, I could not walk & sit well the whole week! I know I have to take it slowly…. so just start from the easy one, cardio excercise. Sooner or later I am sure will be able to do those “torturing boot camp” which I used to love it during training time
For time being, she is keeping me busy lately for home fitness! Meet my personal trainer, Zuzana ( I hope bodyrock.tv will be Free forever! Psss, my sis spent few thousands for personal training cost!)
